Irrational mementos

So It is about 8:35pm,
Majority of my friends are at sizzler,
I could have gone but i decided not to.

I'm sick.

The title of this post makes no sense.
i can hear the score of the golden compass from outside my room,
tis a good movie.

I have being getting grossed out by a lot of this lately.
It's a strange thought.

I think i love watching depressing movies about skateboarders and ghostly limbo.

I FINALLY watched Cirque du Freak last night. Has to be one of my favorites.
And NO it is not just another vampire movie, and i would have you know that Darren's love interest has a TAIL. :P It is a truly complex and fantastical movie about a freaky circus, and yea vampires...but i will have you know that Darren didn't have a choice.

hmmm. <-- i like that word.

i think i am slightly annoying, and i will let you know now....'Scorn' is my word like 'Turd" it doesn't mean anything...and i was just trying to get some attention.

A photo i wished you had kept.

I looked, just looked

at no one,

at nothing in particular

just simply looked.

I stared out into the crowd of life,

there strings of emotions tying knots,

of happiness, of joy, and of love.

i wanted that.

but my emotions sat all by themselves,

alone as i was,

the ends of their strings flat and frayed

...alone.

I couldn't the fact that my hand was not being held,

that there was no whisper n my ear...

telling me that it was all right

that there was no shoulder to lean on

and no smile to make me feel happy

that your arms would never wrap around me

...when i needed them the most

'your arms'...you i don't even know who you are,

i wished i did

and i wished you knew me...

but you will never notice me...

I stopped looking

 and bent my head,

then i cried,

inside,

so you could never see.

I AM, I LIKE, I LOVE

I JUST DON'T GIVE A DAMM ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY ANYMORE.
I LOVE THAT SHOW...AND THAT ONE TOO.
NOTHING YOU CAN SAY WILL CHANGE THAT.

I LIKE FIGHTING ANIME
SC-FI ANIME
ROMANTIC COMEDY ANIME
MYSTERY ANIME
OLD ANIME
AND THINK JUST ABOUT EVERY KIND...EXCEPT FOR HORROR ANIME....

I LOVE OLD  SHOWS....CLASSICS
I LIKE VAMPIRES...JUST NOT THE SPARKLY ONES.
THE BOOKS I READ ARE SUBSTANTIAL....
THEY ARE FULL OF WORDS SAME AS YOURS

I LIKE HIM
YOU LIKE HIM
AND IF IT CAME TO HIM CHOOSING BETWEEN US...
..I KNOW HE WOULD PICK YOU.

I LOVE YOU...THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR...
I JUST NEEDED TO VENT.

I AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC

Emiotion: Sadness Anime: Fullmetal Alchemist

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAqjoCyWcdI

Words hurt the most

I sat on the edge of my bed at 2 o'clock in the morning,

I didn't want to sleep, even though my eyes told me otherwise.

I kept thinking, about things,

things that you don't really need to be thinking about,

but they always pop into your mind.

Words....

now how did that rhyme go,

"Sticks and stone may break my bone but words will never hurt me"

Wrong.

words

hurt

the

most.

Especially when they are self inflicted.

Scream

Have you ever wanted to scream in the middle of a hundred people, just so someone would notice you.

I have
That feeling
All the time.

I just want to scream, but i never do...

I just realised that I'm repulssive, and dumb.

My report card was death, there were no A's i was very disappointed with myself.

I'm Ugly.

Slightly Chubby,

and to random for people to handle.

I mean what other excuse is there.

I think writing is all i can do.

But what good is a writer that can't spell, and has horrible grammar.

Doom and gloom.

Distant.

He placed the necklace around my neck.
He smiled at me, it was obvious how he felt.
But to me it didn't seem right.

This is what i always wanted, dreamed of,
So why was i repulsed by the thought of him liking me.
He was cute, sweet, but still.

I tried to smile back but i was half hearted.
I could feel the tears well up inside me,
so i ran, i didn't want him to see me cry,
or worse,
for me to see his heart break.

This was supposed to be the moment i have waited so long for.
I had thought i loved him,
but it didn't matter,
I was in love with someone else,
and he wasn't you.

~Goodbye to my santa monica dream

Fifteen kids in the backyard drinking wine

you tell me stories of the sea

and the ones you left behind~

Affection is so last year ;)

Naruto: "Hey Sakura! I was wondering if you would go on a date with me. I would be really nice to you, treat you like a human being, get you gifts, and love you everyday!"

Sakura: "Oh please, affection is so last year. All girls care about are the emo guys who treat you like you don't exist. Watch! Hey Sasuke!"
Sasuke: "Go away."
Sakura: "He's so dreamy!"
Naruto: "That doesn't make any sense. Heh heh."

A little bit of Kakashi :P

Kakashi: "Let me tell you about the five Kages and the five hidden villiages so we can lengthen the episode and animate less."



Sasuke, Sakura, and Naruto: "Oh..."


Kakashi: "Hey, at least it isn't a flashback."


Naruto: "Good point."


Kakashi: "Anyway, you've got the five villiages; the drinking gourd (wind), the dog crap (stone), the squiggly lines (waves), the three puddles (water), and the...what the crap is our symbol?! No, seriously! It doesn't even look like a leaf! It looks like a snail fell over and can't get up!"


Naruto: "Umm...sensei?"


Kakashi: "Oh yeah, and then there's the five Kages. The blue, green, red, brown, and yeallow. And together they are: The Kage Rangers!"


Power Rangers theme plays...


Kakashi: "That answer your question?"


Naruto: "We didn't ask you anything."


Kakashi: "Y'know, Logic has a brother. His name is: SHUT THE HELL UP!

The eyes of another

I watched you, followed your eyes. I gasped, you were looking at me, and you were right in front of me. I had never seen anyone like you, you were different to the rest of them, and your eyes were full of love and warmth. They were blue like the sky, but not cold like ice. They were your eyes….you were close to me…


….That time was happy, you smiled, and I smiled. We sat under the stars, on a boat, just the two of us. So why am I crying now? It’s because you looked at me all warm, and told me, that you like to spend time with me…not but that’s not why I’m crying that made me happy, it’s what you said after that killed me inside, ‘We must go our separate ways’ that is what you said….Now we must face this war…each on our own path….I will see you again…I promise


“You will find the way, you are the star.” You kept saying all these things, my friend, but what do they mean. Tears once again fall. I can’t find you, I can’t see you, I need you. Where are you?

Most beautiful thing in the world.

This is a new turn of events.

I"M BACK BLOGGER!!!!!

hmm i think now i shall go on a posting rampage.

enjoy :P