30 December 2010

A one...William Herondale.

"My name is Herondale," the boy said cheerfully. "William Herondale, but everyone calls me Will. Is this really your room? Not very nice, is it?"
He wandered toward the window, pausing to examine the stacks of books on her bedside table, and then the bed itself. He waved a hand at the ropes. "Do you often sleep tied to the bed?"

This comes from the one the only Will Herondale, who is the Jace like persona in Cassandra claire's new Book 'Clockwork Angel.'



it is a prequel series to the very impressive Mortal instruments Series, which was translated into over 25 languages. WOW!

It is...obviously because its a prequel....set before the original series (Which was set in modern day new york) in London 1878.

It  is a fantastic book that only took me less than a night to read and still has the array of shadow hunters and downworlders from the original series. Readers of the mortal instruments will see some familiar faces and personality types as well as enjoying the many hints to the Mortal instrument series with lines such as...

"Black hair and blue eyes are my favorite combination."



...From a one Magnus Bane.  *Cough Cough*

It has that same intense sort of storyline as the original  and will keep you guessing as the book progress. Character development is done so well and the book will just keep you wanting more.

The book contains most of the same genres as the original series including the troubled romances :P

I do recommend both this book and the original series to anyone who is interesting in a good read that has, action, paranormal, mystery and romance.

But remember to start with the 1st book 1st.

City of Bones -By Cassandra Claire.

And now a word from my favorite character in this book.

"I have mastered many things in my life. Navigating the streets of London, speaking French without an accent, dancing the quadrille, the Japanese art of flower arranging, lying at charades, concealing a highly intoxicated state, delighting young women with my charms..."


Tessa stared.


"Alas," he went on, "no one has ever actually referred to me as 'the master,' or 'the magister,' either. More's the pity..."


20 December 2010

Hype of 100 Years.

I have been on a bit of a hype.

Why?


It's not because Christmas is coming soon, or that I have a new job or that next year is my last year of school...that is definitely not it.


No! it's simply because, for the past week when I wake up and I have nothing to do I watch Avatar.


AND NO! not the stupid blue people movie that stole its name.


Avatar : The legend of Aang.

It is an amazing series that consists of 61 episodes over three seasons which in the show they call 'books'

book 1 is water, book 2 earth, and book 3 is fire.

The back ground to the show is clearly explained in the fantastic opening to the show.



....Water. Earth. Fire. Air.



Long ago the four nations lived together in harmony, then everything changed when the fire nation attacked.

only the avatar master of all four elements could stop them, but when the world needed him most...he vanished.

100 years past and my brother and I discovered the new avatar an air bender named Aang, and although his air bending skill a great he still has a lot to learn before he is ready to save anyone...

...but I believe Aang could save the world....



I just get in such a hype whenever I watch it. And I just love everything about it.

The opening. The storyline. The Nations. The Places. The mythology . The supernatural. The characters .The comedy. The romance. The soundtrack. The action. The voices.


Everything.

And by the way, A second miniseries is due to air on nickelodeon next year, I AM SO FLIPPING EXCITED. Avatar: The legend of Korra.


14 December 2010

STEP UP 3

I love this Guy.

Moose i <3 you. :D



And here he is epically water dancing. :D

REDVINES!.. please read the whole thing.

Ron- 'favorite amy man song on 3 123


Both- Redvines
Harry-'favorite color vines other than green

Both- Redvines

Ron- 'favorite way to say redwines in a german accent

Both- Redvines! OH MY GOD!!!!
 
 
AVPS!!!!!!
 
"They don't know what a MOGGLE IS!"
 
I bourght some redvines from my DVD store.
 
"Daddy, you've come to love me."
 
They were tasty.
 
"I'm a racist. I despise gingers and mudbloods. I hate Gryffindor house and my parents work for the man who killed your parents-do you want to be my friend?"

Then i watched Step up 3.

:D

Just watched my favorite epsiode again.
"The Beach"




06 December 2010

You Know Whats Odd?

When you find out your cousin has read through the majority of your blog...from the beginning.

STALKER!!! Just kidding.

Yes Jack i am talking about you ;)

HAHAHAHA.

So....Yeah.

Random outburst.

04 December 2010

Inside a mind of just a girl.

Hello?

...

Hello!?

...

Hello...?

...

Hello...

...Yes?

...

Who is there?

..You can hear me?!

Of course. I don't know how, but i can. Who are you?

How can you hear me, why, why now?

I can always hear you.

But you never reply.

Well up until now i haven't been able to talk back.

..Oh.

Who are you?

Just a girl.

I have heard you cry.

Yes.

Why?

Because i thought no one would ever hear me.

I can hear you.

Yes you can...Who are you?

Just a boy.

You

I think about you when i sleep.
i call to you with my mind, wishing that somehow my message will reach you,
that you will hear me,
my thoughts
and think about me also.
So then you will wake up and coming to find me,
run to my door.
I wait.
But you never come.

Love and the World.

Why can't people see that i just want to be in love...
...without all the drama and facts.
I don't want to care about the age difference or whatever or the fact that you with never know me or love me.

I don't care...but the world does...I hate it, and i just don't understand why it can't let me be.

26 November 2010

Cheerio.

So i will be up very early tomorrow.

I'm going to melbourne!!!! :D :D :D

I dyed my hair....it was a little different to what i expected......But I love it. :D



This should be my morde hair.

So see you in 5 days.

Cheerio Chaps. :D

23 November 2010

2 days away from you.

So I will be going to melbourne in 2 days EPPPP!!

But first i have 3 exams. YUCK!!

*Sigh* oh well i will just have to power through them with the ultimate renal pelvis in sight. :D

Then on the friday arvo i will go home, pack, relax, and die my hair a 'Medium Mahogany Brown' it shall be fab. But not as delightfully fab as holly's purple hair will be. I can't wait to see it.

Well that is my strangely normal update.

See you chaps later. :D

21 November 2010

5 to go...25...5 to go

Yep. He's lost it. Gone insane, i wished he wouldn't, but at least he still has that reason to stay some what sane. WOW! who on earth are you! are you a girl or a guy...why did you kidnap her? O.O ummm. okay THIS IS INANITY! i love it. Omg he just cried. awwwww. Oh she is comforting him. thats sweet. SAY WHAT. no no no no. this is seriously insane. i love this. He just shot.....WHAT....He just Killed......WHAT.... oops now he's MAD. He is coming after you. Oh A flashback. He is worried about her. Did she just kiss him. O.O :D Meant to be. i hope they both survive. OTOH He found you. you both have guns. *SHOT* Blackout. End! WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have 5 chapters of my book to go.

I have 5 exams left.

hmmm.

...Don't die

Remeber who you are talking to.

-Smiles-

17 November 2010

101....



*COUGH cough*

So i really want to see harry potter 7 sooon.
:D






13 November 2010

...This is a contract, from me to you...

If you think that i am different,
then you are most likely right.
i am not the same as you
i don't think the same as you,
act the same as you,
think the same as you,
like the same as you.

you cannot think that i will just take do what you do in that situation,
because
you
are
wrong.



Just because of this do not think
that
i
have no feeling,
that just because i do not cry at the same things you do,
or as much as you,
that i don't cry.

i just cry where you will never see me.

Know,
 that i do get hurt,
that i feel pain,
that i get my heart broken.

So please for my hearts sake,
do not destroy me,
i try to contribute,
though i have nothing,
i try to get you to like something i like,
so you can share in my joy,
so i will be included,
talked to,
loved.

I am not at all the same as you.
and i don't care anymore.


Ps. YES the title is from an anime. SO WHAT go beat me up later, i don't care. But i just watched this lovely scene.

Lelouch: this is a contract from me to you.
C2 (C.C) : Then i accept your contract *smiles and holds out her hand*
* lelouch's hat fall to the ground as he runs forward to C2, where his finger tips meet C2's, then their hands gently come together*
<3
Judge me if you want, i don't care....but yet i do...

10 November 2010

09 November 2010

Code geass vs Death note

If Lelouch and Light yagami had a face off....

Lelouch would in hands down.

Lelouch: (To light) *uses geass* Light...kill yourself.

Light: Ok! *writes his own name in the Death note.

:P

told you so.

Love you Lelouch!

07 November 2010

A New Kind Of Thinking.

So i have decided to tell you all about my weekend.

Friday night to right now, in a jumble of worlds.

Car trip Icetea Noaircon MumNeedsANewcar. Drive way Sims 3 food, Flex. DvdShop, dragon, meatballs, Hot rod, Mrs. Ratcliffes revolution. Arcania, sims3 sleep dreams wake up sweat attack xbox computer vampires blood, assignment northlakes book called heidi deltora quest. car shop, pick a colour, White matrix, brids awesome. home deltora...i love leif....and also dain...but not as much as leif. reading heidi, look at the time, dressed for work food.....work work work...ow i cut my finger....work 2 times next week. home tome, bench warmers, funny lady youtube death star, goodnight daddy. wake up sims, assassins blood, stupid man. i love AC...you get to kill the fat man...assignment headache...dads help assignment alsmost done....thats enough, movies movies deltora Yay! Dinner yummmy...I love Altaïr... Blogger :D


Yes i love you too. :D

04 November 2010

Real Is What Is True.

People walk in an out of your life. Sometimes we wished they wouldn't because we thought for some reason that they would be kinder to us.



We would hope that they, above all else, would be there for us when things would make us weak.
But they don't.
We wish that they would, like would be right, help us through what is wrong.
But they won't.
They will only let you fall, when you hang over the edge of life.
They will walk over you when you are crushed on the ground by the world.
They are not real and they are not true.
They are just Friends....or at least we would think they are, were, not anymore, but we will laugh and smile with them just because it is what is right.

But real friends, true friends, best friends...are always there...no matter what.
The will make you strong,
cry with you,
support you,
catch you,
love you,
fight for you.

they no everything about you, they have seen your best and worst.
but they still love you.


because that is what is real and what is true.

01 November 2010

Vampires....

So i tried this thing where i make us look like vampires....good on me. :D

I think we would make good vampires.

31 October 2010

Gunslinger Girl

...What were those words....I'm Sorry...

After the dream.

ascolta, dolce Maria Ridonami, ti prego il mio sorriso

Ah! si, del mio cammino sii la propizia stella. pervenir teco, bella sera la morte a me.
ascolta, salve Maria
suo duol suoi tristi accenti oda il tuo pietoso cor.
A te, che benedetta fra tutte sei, Maria.
voli la prece mio, pura sinnalzi a te.
ascolta, santa Maria Ridnami, ti prego il mio calma.
Allanima che anella di ricovrarti in braccio,
deh! Rompi, Maria, il laccio che le impedesce il voi.
ascolta, dolce Maria
suo duol, suoi tristi accenti oda il tuo pietoso cor.
...Did I ever tell you why I left home....

22 September 2010

You see, it is actully all about me.

You  know i was going to write something deep and depressing tonight.
but  it would not be because that is what i am feeling.
It would have been to latch onto and bite into and feed on like a vampire, each thread of pity, remorse, sadness that the readers of this would give out in response. Yes that's right. i would chase after every scrap of attention you give, because for the most of it i feel left out.
That is why i self proclaim myself a freak and parade it around, that is why i like to scream and point out things we have been over a millions times.
To get your attention.
That is why i talk and talk about things that i know make you annoyed.
To see you reaction.
See i'm even doing it now. i want you to read this and feel something from it. Some emotional reaction that i can zap from you and store away.
And you see that is why i like watching movies that would you probably hate, and listening to stuff that makes you sick.
That is why i make up stupid stories, because in my stories for once, everyone is looking at me.

20 September 2010

VLAD IS IN THE BAG.
:P

13 September 2010

Because i want to be seen as the strange one.

It has come to my attention that not many people have the same humor as me,
mine is quite broad,
i find a lot of things funny.

like these.


11 September 2010

Life...what a drag.

I looked at one aspect of my life today and this is what i think about it....

That's Unrealistic.

Never going to happen.

No way, in your dreams.

....yeah exactly.

If he hurts you....

.....then why are you in love.

09 September 2010

One day, she cried, i found her, we cried together.

This goes out to a special person.

Someone who dosen't reliaize how important she is,

How bueatiful, how extrodanary, and how much fun to be around.

I am so glad that i have become so close to her.

We like almost all the same people.

She has amazing hair and eyes,

She has the best laugh.

She complains when i tell us to stand in hieght order.

She is a Chan!

She is salior pluto.

She likes anime, and can put up with my constant babble.

She likes the strong and silent type.

She likes sasuke, and kakashi.

She has the best taste in music.

She HATES the tribe. :P

She was the purple one.

DON SENPAI XD....She will get this.

Macbeth....

Sean Bean :D

I know that she is feeling broken, but she should also know that i am here for her...always, anytime, anywhere, any situation.

She is my best friend.

I love you.

You know who you are.

08 September 2010

We are in our own world...


We are in our own world.
Hidden behind a screen
of purple lace and golden tears,
Where nobody can find us.

05 September 2010

81...No dial tone, don't go into the forest.

So i watched 'Tomorrow when the war began' yesterday.

And all i can say is, i want to go camping, and i want to be in a situation as scary and thrilling as the one in that movie.

Then i watched The secret of Moonacre, fell in love with the movie and with robin....but that's not whats this post it about.

I still feel lost.

Empty.

In the invisible middle of every situations.

I have information for things gone, that i really shouldn't know.

Problems that are past,

but my problems are still there.

I'm in the blackground of the background...and nobody really cares.

I want to be in war, smash a window, blow up something, win something, go back to when that was set, live in Moonacre, see a black lion, and meet Robin in the forest.

04 September 2010

I love stories of sadness.

"how old is arrow?”


“Nineteen in spring.” I was taken aback, he seemed so young.

“Wow...hmmm what was up with him before he seemed like he had been crying.” I was cautious with my words, because I didn’t know how to ask.

“Because he probably overheard us talking, about what happened.”

“Why would he be upset?”

“Because the only survivor, Maria, was going to be his wife.”

“But she is still alive why-”

“Because she is also the daughter of the traitor.” Freda lowered he head and wept. “She didn’t do anything wrong, but they still suspected her, they chased her, until she could run no more, but yet she would run further. They asked for help from our troupe and so some of the men went out and of course arrow, but he went to help her, not capture her. Arrow finally found her, but she said that she never wanted to see him again that it was too dangerous, and she ran again, an left arrow never to see him again.”

-Chapter 5 Chasing Shadows.

The Secret of Moonacre.

I fell in love with this movie tonight.

If you love beautiful worlds and a good moral, then watch this movie.

When Maria Merrywheather is orphaned she is sent to live with her uncle along with her only inheritance a book tittled 'the ancient Chronicles of moonacre'. A book that contained a story of love, pride, the greed of man, The beautiful moon princess and the hatred of two waring families the merryweather's and the De Noir's. Then as she explores her new home, She discovers that the story is real and that she is the last moon Princess and now she must save her home from a curse that comes with the 5000th moon....

And of course this is my favorite character Robin De Noir.




"Robin, Why did you have one of my ribbons in your pocket?"




28 August 2010

Onigiri

Well i'm not the strapping young rice ball artist yet :P
But i think i did ok for my first go.















And of course there is SUMO TUNA!!!!!

27 August 2010

Progress is peeping its head around the corner

I have finished my biology assignment, to be handed in on Monday. :D

I have memorized about half of my English :P

Chemistry....has yet to be started.

Ancient history is about 450 words in...getting there slowly.
I think, however this might be my main problem.

*Typing* "As with any other culture, food was just as important for the ancient Greeks....." Erin: hmmm foood. *Walks to fridge*

I love my stupid distractions.

Abadeo :P

I wanna make you the right one

Don't wanna be lonely

Smile, cos you know we're getting on


I wanna make you my bright onw

Why be a stranger when we know

We belong, yeh we belong

Waiting for you has taken all my life

Such a long time, I went out of my mind

 
Eh Oh A Ba De Oh

A Be De Oh Na Na Na Na Na Na


I need you to be on my side

The one and only reason

It's good to be alive

 
I need you to be in my sight

I wanna be with you

Feeling everything will be alright

Waiting for you has taken all my life

Such a long time I went out of my mind

Eh Oh A Ba De Oh

A Be De Oh Na Na Na Na Na Na

26 August 2010

Zero no tsukaima

Zero no tsukaima : English translation, The familiar of Zero

But i watched it in jap. :D

22 August 2010

Tears of a ghost

I shall put,on a happy face,
but this is the part i hate the most.
i try, i die.
and never again.
I need you,
safety
warmth.
but no,
you don't see me,
here,
I'm like a ghost,
watch me fade
and all you will see
is a face
with no tears.

17 August 2010

"Missions"

I really love this series:

The Third: "Look, I'm gonna level with you, these "missions" are just an excuse to get free labor and not have to pay anything. And then we label them as "missions". Kakashi, take it away."


Kakashi: "*clears throat* Okay here's the breakdown. D's are done by you dorks,They're like illegal immigrant work, and working for 4kids, And if we feel like it, you guys can do C's. C's and B's are for-"

Iruka: "Me right?"

Kakashi: "Iruka? What the hell are you doing here?"

Iruka: "Duh, fans seem to like me and I don't have enough lines in this episode."

Kakashi: "Will you get out of here?!"

Iruka: "Okay, okay. Jeez."

walks away...

Kakashib "*clears throat again* Anyway..."

The Third: "Sorry Kakashi, you ran out of time."

Kakashi: "But...Iruka-"

The Third: "I said you ran out of time! But thanks for playing. Your consolation prize is a C mission."

Dull

I have a dull ache inside my heart,
All my dreams are fake,
all my wishes hopeless,
and soon i will probably never see you again.

16 August 2010

Part 2 – Deep cuts, stained with apple juice.

The girl woke panting; she didn’t want to remember, what had happened anymore. The fire, the smoke, the screaming; now everything was gone. Her parents no longer walked the earth and her foster parents acted like she didn’t exist, yes her life sucked but that wasn’t all, next there were the dreams, make that night mares which seemed so real, and that boy-no she didn’t want to think about it. Almost screaming she took the familiar razor and rolled up her sleeve, old scar still healing were now reopened as she sliced the blade across her arm and again and again, until she felt like she could finally breathe once more.

School was hectic, she was surely going to fail, but she acted like everything was fine. She walked to her favourite lunch spot a little before the bell rang and le the sun warm her scars from beneath her scratchy school jumper. Sighing she got out her jacket wincing at the all too familiar pain that lay beneath the bandaged wounds, and dropped the apple she had been holding. She held her wrist and didn’t notice the person standing above her, apple in hand.

“Ummm.” The voice surprised her and she jumped. “Is this yours?”

She looked up and saw her favourite pair of eyes looking at her, it was him. He was her school girl crush, he was a year older than he, and problem didn’t even no she existed; this was the first time they had spoken. Surprised she stumbled, and clumsily tried to take the apple from her hand, it dropped to the ground yet again. He laughed, she blushed, and he picked it up and then sat next to her.

“I think you will need a new one, this one’s all cut.” The cuts in her arm began to throb.

“Here,” he dug into his bag and pulled out a new apple, “You can have mine.” He smiled, she smiled back.

[To be continued]

Part 1 – a nightmare that is and was and will come

Moving away from the wall, the girl walked slowly forward, her face mask of terror. Laying before her was him, the boy she had always dreamed of, except he wasn’t breathing.

Vile blood stained his shirt.

Tears came. she was silent, but still they fell like waterfalls from her eyes. The boy’s eyes were open, his expression betrayal. The girl bent down still silent and touched his cold face, she then gently with the tips of her fingers closed his eyes. She cradled his face and kissed him. Their goodbye kiss. Then still silent she got up and ran, escaping her deepest nightmare.

The storm rumbled over her, the grass was covered in the horrible remnants of  war. Flies covered the bodies, that lay in unnatural positions before her eyes. She closed her eyes and began to scream loudly, hoping to escape, but her foot caught something and she fell. The girl landed in the bloodied mud, she reached out her hand to brace herself and felt it touch something cold.

The gem glimmered in front of her eyes as she traced it’s shining outline with her thumb.

“Ow.” she spoke in surprise. “It cut me” the girl got up and looked at the blood on her fingers.

How did it come to this? Why is this happening? Why did they betray me so? Why?

[to be continued…]

15 August 2010

I wish that this was me and you.

Carmen

I am so over this feeling,
silent rejection,
because they never know,
It hurts
every single time.
I sometimes wish that
i could stop falling in love,
or getting a 'crush'
i think its to broad a word,
but then i think sometimes
i like this hurting feeling,
i like to cry,
but i just wish you were there to see it,
so you would know,
that i got hurt.

11 August 2010

I Think i have an obsession with notebooks, and journals.

They are places where i can write down anything, absolutely anything.

Unfinished dreams,

Rash thoughts,

Secret feelings,

poems and songs.

Anything.

Reading  though them brings back a lot of forgotten memories.

I start freaking out when i can't find one, even if its full.

10 August 2010

That was...

That was just way to sad,

and it confused the heck out of me.

I mean what was with the bird and how come he didn't come back,

 i get the whole other world,

but that endding...

Gosh.

Air

I really love this show.

09 August 2010

Gao

I am stupid,
and lame,
and i think i can get everything i want,
when i can't.

I try to make people listen,
i think they are repulsed by everything i say,
It hurts,
crazily enough.

So nobody cares anymore, Erin, get over yourself.

Every Little thing

Every Little thing you did...
 its so unfair,
i just had to stare.
i don't know you
you don't know me,
but every little thing you did,
seemed perfect to me.
Like when you put your arm around that chair,
that's where i wanted to be,
to talk to you,
for you to smile at me.
but i have nothing to talk to you about,
it sucks you know
because every little thing,
made my world spin slow.
now i have torn emotions
or could be just a school girl crush,
but  all my emotions seem to split,
because every little thing,
has me sighing where i sit.

08 August 2010

I got a coat.

I got a coat...it is long and black.
It reminds me of the coat that amber wears in the tribe...

and that got me thinking...

Everybody hates the tribe when they really no nothing about it..so here is series one syonpsis

The Tribe is a post-apocalyptic TV series primarily aimed at teenagers. It is set in a hypothetical near-future in which all adults have been wiped out by a deadly virus, leaving the children of the world to fend for themselves. The show's focus is on an unnamed city inhabited by tribes of children and teenagers.


Series 1


Amber and Dal, wander the streets when they stumble upon Cloe, Salene, Patsy and Paul. They are attacked by Lex, Ryan and Zandra and take refuge in a Shopping Mall where Jack has been living since his father died. Seeing the advantages the Mall offers, they all decide to stay. Lex and Ryan agree to defend the newly-formed Tribe in exchange for shelter and food. They are soon joined by Bray and a heavily pregnant Trudy.Lex and the rest of the tribe members want trudy gone, Bray will never let that happen.Trudy wants bray and her to start a family.But Bray dosn't want that. Though, the majority is against letting them stay, they change their mind once the baby is born. They decide to call themselves the Mall Rats in a bonding ritual performed by Tai-San.

Throughout Series 1, the Mall Rats struggle to survive in the new world. The Tribe is confronted with water and food shortage. Jack and Dal work on a wind turbine that allows them to trade batteries for food. The members of the new Tribe find it difficult, at first, to live with each other. They all have different opinions and tend to put their own interest first. Amber, Bray and Lex compete for leadership and barely agree to share the responsibilities. Amber takes care of day-to-day management, Bray supplies food and Lex is named Head of Security. The characters also have to deal with personal problems inside their Tribe. Trudy suffers from postnatal depression and Patsy’s twin brother, Paul, goes missing without a trace. Salene suffers from bulimia,(which goes through to season 2) but finds comfort in Trudy and Ryan.

The Mall Rats also have to defend themselves against the outside enemies. Jack invents an alarm system that tells them when there is an intruder. When Zoot is accidentally killed in a fight with Lex, the Locos start looking for him everywhere. The Mall Rats take part in a Tribal Gathering and unsuccessfully try to convince the other Tribes to rebel against the Locos. After KC loses everything while gambling, the Tribe Circus invades the Mall and almost leaves them for dead. They are saved by an improbable alliance with the new leader of the Locos, Ebony. Lex and Zandra also get married in season 1.

When the second wave of the Virus hits the City, the Mall Rats decide to go search inside government buildings, hoping to find a cure. Bray, Amber, Dal and Lex find an antidote on Hope Island, and when Lex catches the Virus, Ebony forces him to drink it to see its effects. Lex is fully cured and the Mall Rats, along with Ebony, leave the Mall for Eagle Mountain, hoping to find further information on the antidote. Once there, they don’t find any formula and the Mall Rats consider going their separate ways. Suddenly, there is a Spanish message to the space observation site Eagle Mountain : "Vaya con Dios" - "Go with God" and the Mall Rats are told they are the only hope for humanity...

So we are in season 3 now....

I really want to buy them on dvd :P

:P i only just found out that some of may favorite characters also went on to be some of my favorite 'Power Rangers' characters.

06 August 2010

Beyond the cherry trees

Silence for the unnoticed

I finally realised that i have nothing to say...nothing to contribute....and nothing to add.
I will just watch and be silent.

I had another dream last night.
but you don't care.
I have too much on my plate.
but nobody cares.
I struggle to make it through.
But you never see.

She is silent in amongst the noise,
she watches,
But does not try to see.
She is quiet
so that people will here her scream,
she acts invisible
like the unnoticed,
so that you will notice her.


31 July 2010

Irrational mementos

So It is about 8:35pm,
Majority of my friends are at sizzler,
I could have gone but i decided not to.

I'm sick.

The title of this post makes no sense.
i can hear the score of the golden compass from outside my room,
tis a good movie.

I have being getting grossed out by a lot of this lately.
It's a strange thought.

I think i love watching depressing movies about skateboarders and ghostly limbo.

I FINALLY watched Cirque du Freak last night. Has to be one of my favorites.
And NO it is not just another vampire movie, and i would have you know that Darren's love interest has a TAIL. :P It is a truly complex and fantastical movie about a freaky circus, and yea vampires...but i will have you know that Darren didn't have a choice.

hmmm. <-- i like that word.

i think i am slightly annoying, and i will let you know now....'Scorn' is my word like 'Turd" it doesn't mean anything...and i was just trying to get some attention.

25 July 2010

A photo i wished you had kept.

I looked, just looked
at no one,
at nothing in particular
just simply looked.

I stared out into the crowd of life,
there strings of emotions tying knots,
of happiness, of joy, and of love.
i wanted that.

but my emotions sat all by themselves,
alone as i was,
the ends of their strings flat and frayed
...alone.

I couldn't the fact that my hand was not being held,
that there was no whisper n my ear...
telling me that it was all right
that there was no shoulder to lean on
and no smile to make me feel happy
that your arms would never wrap around me
...when i needed them the most
'your arms'...you i don't even know who you are,
i wished i did
and i wished you knew me...

but you will never notice me...

I stopped looking
 and bent my head,
then i cried,
inside,
so you could never see.

24 July 2010

I AM, I LIKE, I LOVE

I JUST DON'T GIVE A DAMM ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY ANYMORE.
I LOVE THAT SHOW...AND THAT ONE TOO.
NOTHING YOU CAN SAY WILL CHANGE THAT.

I LIKE FIGHTING ANIME
SC-FI ANIME
ROMANTIC COMEDY ANIME
MYSTERY ANIME
OLD ANIME
AND THINK JUST ABOUT EVERY KIND...EXCEPT FOR HORROR ANIME....

I LOVE OLD  SHOWS....CLASSICS
I LIKE VAMPIRES...JUST NOT THE SPARKLY ONES.
THE BOOKS I READ ARE SUBSTANTIAL....
THEY ARE FULL OF WORDS SAME AS YOURS

I LIKE HIM
YOU LIKE HIM
AND IF IT CAME TO HIM CHOOSING BETWEEN US...
..I KNOW HE WOULD PICK YOU.

I LOVE YOU...THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR...
I JUST NEEDED TO VENT.

I AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC

Emiotion: Sadness Anime: Fullmetal Alchemist

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAqjoCyWcdI

23 July 2010

Words hurt the most

I sat on the edge of my bed at 2 o'clock in the morning,
I didn't want to sleep, even though my eyes told me otherwise.
I kept thinking, about things,
things that you don't really need to be thinking about,
but they always pop into your mind.
Words....
now how did that rhyme go,
"Sticks and stone may break my bone but words will never hurt me"
Wrong.
words
hurt
the
most.

Especially when they are self inflicted.

Scream

Have you ever wanted to scream in the middle of a hundred people, just so someone would notice you.

I have
That feeling
All the time.

I just want to scream, but i never do...
I just realised that I'm repulssive, and dumb.

My report card was death, there were no A's i was very disappointed with myself.

I'm Ugly.

Slightly Chubby,

and to random for people to handle.

I mean what other excuse is there.

16 July 2010

I think writing is all i can do.

But what good is a writer that can't spell, and has horrible grammar.

Doom and gloom.

Distant.

He placed the necklace around my neck.
He smiled at me, it was obvious how he felt.
But to me it didn't seem right.

This is what i always wanted, dreamed of,
So why was i repulsed by the thought of him liking me.
He was cute, sweet, but still.

I tried to smile back but i was half hearted.
I could feel the tears well up inside me,
so i ran, i didn't want him to see me cry,
or worse,
for me to see his heart break.

This was supposed to be the moment i have waited so long for.
I had thought i loved him,
but it didn't matter,
I was in love with someone else,
and he wasn't you.

13 July 2010

~Goodbye to my santa monica dream
Fifteen kids in the backyard drinking wine
you tell me stories of the sea
and the ones you left behind~

Affection is so last year ;)

Naruto: "Hey Sakura! I was wondering if you would go on a date with me. I would be really nice to you, treat you like a human being, get you gifts, and love you everyday!"

Sakura: "Oh please, affection is so last year. All girls care about are the emo guys who treat you like you don't exist. Watch! Hey Sasuke!"
Sasuke: "Go away."
Sakura: "He's so dreamy!"
Naruto: "That doesn't make any sense. Heh heh."

A little bit of Kakashi :P

Kakashi: "Let me tell you about the five Kages and the five hidden villiages so we can lengthen the episode and animate less."



Sasuke, Sakura, and Naruto: "Oh..."


Kakashi: "Hey, at least it isn't a flashback."


Naruto: "Good point."


Kakashi: "Anyway, you've got the five villiages; the drinking gourd (wind), the dog crap (stone), the squiggly lines (waves), the three puddles (water), and the...what the crap is our symbol?! No, seriously! It doesn't even look like a leaf! It looks like a snail fell over and can't get up!"


Naruto: "Umm...sensei?"


Kakashi: "Oh yeah, and then there's the five Kages. The blue, green, red, brown, and yeallow. And together they are: The Kage Rangers!"


Power Rangers theme plays...


Kakashi: "That answer your question?"


Naruto: "We didn't ask you anything."


Kakashi: "Y'know, Logic has a brother. His name is: SHUT THE HELL UP!

The eyes of another

I watched you, followed your eyes. I gasped, you were looking at me, and you were right in front of me. I had never seen anyone like you, you were different to the rest of them, and your eyes were full of love and warmth. They were blue like the sky, but not cold like ice. They were your eyes….you were close to me…


….That time was happy, you smiled, and I smiled. We sat under the stars, on a boat, just the two of us. So why am I crying now? It’s because you looked at me all warm, and told me, that you like to spend time with me…not but that’s not why I’m crying that made me happy, it’s what you said after that killed me inside, ‘We must go our separate ways’ that is what you said….Now we must face this war…each on our own path….I will see you again…I promise


“You will find the way, you are the star.” You kept saying all these things, my friend, but what do they mean. Tears once again fall. I can’t find you, I can’t see you, I need you. Where are you?

Most beautiful thing in the world.

This is a new turn of events.

I"M BACK BLOGGER!!!!!

hmm i think now i shall go on a posting rampage.

enjoy :P

31 May 2010

This isn't how it's supose to be...

Dear blogger,
how are you?
I wish you could answer.

i am sorry that i have neglected you,
i am so busy at the moment.

i will write more over the holidays i promise....i hope.

i just want to let you know that i love you still,

and that you and i are the only ones that can see behind me closed eyes.

27 April 2010

I screamed 'Every Heart!' to the world.


Tell me babe, how many do I shed my tears?
Every Heart Every Heart is not a gentle yet

Shall I do? I can never say my loneliness
Every Heart doesn't know so what to say oh what to do

(I) was afraid of darkness cause I felt that I was left alone
So I prayed for help to (the) distant million stars

Round & Round the planets revolve round the sun
And we always seek after love and peace Forever more
Growing growing woe baby we can work it out
Look up at the sky Every Heart is shining all today

Show me now, What kind of smile do I come across
Every Heart Every Heart can take a step towards the dreams

All of us what to take a lasting happiness
Whenever you feel sad, I wanna hold you & give you a sound sleep


Someday Every Hearts gonna free and easy
We have peace of mind
Someday all the people find the way to love

Goes & Goes the time goes on we are not alone
We live on together and we will find some precious things
Sometime we will smile sometime we will cry somehow
Don't forget believing yourself - Tomorrow's never die


There is the warm heart places on my mind
In my earliest day's there and it's so sweet

There are many stars they have talk with me so kind
They say yes always time's a friend of mine so shine

Round & Round the planets revolve round the sun
And we always seek after love and peace Forever more
Growing growing woe baby we can work it out
Look up at the sky Every Heart is shining all today

Goes & Goes the time goes on we are not alone
We live on together and we will find some precious things
Sometime we will smile sometime we will cry somehow
Don't forget believing yourself - Tomorrow's never die