We Still Don't Know the Name of the Flower We Saw That Day

What would you do if one of your friends died? How would you react, how would your life be a few years down the track? Would it be the same?

Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae o Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai 

Wow what a long name.

AnoHana, which the title is often shortened to,  is an anime that aired in japan earlier this year. It is Numbing.  The title in english means 'We Still Don't Know the Name of the Flower We Saw That Day' and it is a slice of life anime that is really heart wrenching.

It Follows the story of a group of six childhood friends that drift apart after one of them, a girl called 'Menma' dies in an accident.  Several years after the incident, the leader of the group, Jinta Yadomi, has withdrawn from society and lives as a recluse. One summer day, an older looking Menma appears before him and asks to have a wish granted, though she does not remember what it is.

....i know i say alot of anime are sad, but this one just really is.

What would you do if one of your friends died? 

I saw him in my dreams

I saw him in my dreams,
as my eyelids fell shut,
and i stepped into a world,
a world i didn't trust.

A stranger in this world i was,
as i walked through the darkness,
crying out so hopefully,
for a light within the darkness.

Then, as the forest cleared,
and i saw the moon in full,
there standing on the hilltop,
was a boy, with eyes as bright as the stars above.

I then gasped in the cool night air,
and my legs began to shake,
as the boy smiled down to me,
his hand outstretched for me to take.

I stumbled forward, carelessly,
it didn't matter where i was,
because the boy was standing there,
ready to catch me as i fell.

He took my hand and held it,
as we both fell to the ground,
then he hugged me tight,
as if protecting me from his world.

I looked at our hands together creating a soft yellow glow,
then turned my gaze to him,
and whispered
'Please never let go.'

Then tears began to fall down my cheeks,
as he turned to me and replied,
with three words that had me crying for weeks, the words
'I love you.'

Then suddenly i was torn from him,
as the darkness flooded around me,
and i was pulled back into the cruel world,
called reality.

Yes i saw him in my dreams that night,
the tears still sting my eyes,
and my heart will never heal,
because this world is full of lies.

Dream Journal: Is this my world?

16/12/09

I ran along the path, the rundown mansion in front of me, shining through the dark sky. I didn't who or what I was running from I just had to run. Have I been here before? I thought I had, but it was soon shaken from me, as I was picked up by someone with inhuman speed he turned me too him and I saw his face. Do I know him? No I don't know him I had never seen him before in my life. Suddenly like a dream I looked up and there was no longer any mansion, but the dead end of an alley way. I turned but not quick enough and was struck by this force, this person. I felt the pain and was about to be stuck and again when a person appeared in front of me his arms outstretched blocking the force from reaching me, soon other joined him, and the force was driven back disappearing into the darkness. Then the original person tuned and looked down to me, his bright eyes shining through the darkness.
"Ally. Are you okay?" Ally…was that my name. I thought, now taking his hand. It must be because he had said it. He helped me up, then I pulled my hand away. Because he said it?! I don't even know who he is. I looked around at all the faces staring at me, then the boy nodded to the person next to him and my world went black…

I woke, looked at where I saw and sighed. It had been three weeks since Blake and the others had found me, and brought me to that mansion. The girl next to me got up and smiled, "I wonder what pain staking thing we will have to do today." The girl, Holly had become my best friend since I had come here, and she too felt like this world was not her own, it seemed to perfect, to wonderful, to beautiful.

We walked out onto the destroyed courtyard chunks of rubble and plants lay everywhere across this ground. I looked around at the place which once would have been a magnificent place, now, the only safe place for us to hide. I looked around at the group I had become a part of it consisted of six members, there was the leader Blake, Sasha, Alexis the snobby rich girl who thought she had claimed Blake as her own, Aaron who had some strange disease, and holly and myself. I walked over to Blake as there was a concerned look on his face, and he told everyone something we didn't want to heard.
"they are coming…" everyone gasped, as he pointed to Aaron who had started to fade, with his disease, a disease where, whenever he was about to be taken over by the saros, then her would disappear. "don't worry I have a plan…."
We spent most of the day listening to what he had to say, and soon the plan was put into action, we had to climb up to the top of the mansion, to a place where we would get ready for an attack. Where we would set up a trap, for that person and his soldiers. And so I stood at the bottom of the net that had been made by the fallen wires, pipes and rubble from when the first attack had occurred. I watched as my friends climbed up the net with skilled and speed. I sigh and started to climb, but I was now where as good as they all were and soon my fear had gotten the best of me and I started to shake, then my foot slipped, but instead of screaming and getting all embarrassed I just gripped the net as hard as I could and started to shake frozen in fear. The suddenly someone appeared beside me, it was Blake. He slowly edged my hand from the net and put it in his own. "its okay." He said softly, and then he told me to hold his wrist and we climbed to the top together. I couldn't help seeing Alexis glare at me as we reached the top, where I was greeted by holly smiling and comforting face. Next we were told to take one of the boxes that had been dragged up the net in a sack and set what looked to be like small bombs up around the top courtyard, which according to Blake would be our new home for a little while. Once all the bombs were set up, we were each given a gun, and told to try and relax, as if that would happen. All the time strange things were giong through my mind. This has happened before, has it, how do I know…why do I feel like history is repeating itself. Then a strange thought came over my mind and I turned to holly. " I would want to buy this anime series." Then she gave me a puzzled look, then a nod and I again felt that this was not my place. Then Blake came over and stood in the middle of everyone.

"I believe they will not get us….don't worry you are all safe."
I felt something inside me, fear well up and threaten to come out as tears, I sat by myself, just staring at the ground for a while after that, when I felt a tap from beside me and turned to see Aaron disappear.
Shocked and afriad I walked over to where Blake was standing, passing the turning heads as i pushed past my friends,fell into blakes arms and said. "I don’t' feel very safe anymore…"

FanGirl Syndrome (Everyone is beautiful in anime)

Think of a world where everyone is beautiful, where people go on adventures we could only dream of. Who go through thick and thin with their friends and fight evil, with their super powers. Where any story can come to life.

Well I am now welcoming you into the beautiful world of amine. Where I am quite frankly jealous of the characters in the story, because everyone is beautiful in anime. How can it be my fault that I keep falling in love with the characters on screen… there just so damm beautiful.



Takefor instance : Edward Elric, Inuyasha, Bankostu, Howl, Haku, Elliot, gaara, itachi, Shikamaru…. Okay so you get the picture. But really it is not fair. It is kind of like a disease which Is so kindly known as *Fan girl syndrome*
There are many symptoms on fan girl syndrome (think you might have it, these will help you decide if you do.)

1. You watch a lot of anime/cartoons
2. You say that particular character is 'awesome'
3. You look for pictures of them on the internet.
4. You sigh when they come on screen.
5. You must have the all of the DVDS.
6. You take quizzes about the show on facebook.
7. You rig the quiz so you get them or the 'girlfriend' of your character.
8. You create a character of your own, and strategically place them into the storyline.
9. You dream about them.
10. You stick pictures of them into your books and diaries.

11. You write about them in you diary or blog.
12. You write fan fiction stories about them.
13. You get really angry when someone says the show sucks.
14. You get really defensive when someone calls your character ugly.
15. You would kill or die for them.
16. You wish they were real.
17. You cry about them saying 'why aren't you real.'

Don't worry if you have most or even all of these symptoms because I have them two. And don't worry my friend holly and I are currently inventing a machine that will fix all our problems.


And don't worry…I know that everyone is beautiful in anime.